You Miss 100% Of The Shots You Never Take

If there’s something futurists from the 1980s got right, the triumph of the nerds is now evident more than ever. The same people that used to bully Melvin in grade school or those brainless jocks that made him cower in fear pee now have Facebook pages, Twitter accounts, use smartphones, iPads, DSLRs and sometimes spend their weekends in front of a console playing whatever latest edition of sportsball is out. They even know what 3G means. The rivalry between nerds and jocks is long gone because the nerds have won.



One quality that is always endearing to me about nerd culture is how they are always hyper self-aware. Nerds obsess over things, down the very last detail and take pride in seeing things that other don’t. Nothing is trivial to them and anything worth knowing is worth remembering, all for the sake of being more knowledgeable. When I was young, I was occasionally teased that I was always in my own little world, created by my obsessions with video games and The X-Files. The truth is (hey X-Files fans!), those little worlds some of us had weren’t just little getaways from the real world. For some of us, they actually amplified the real world, making it easier and just a little bit more fun to live in. I often like to quip that living life a video game, complete with life bars and stats, would make everyone a little bit better. There’s a good amount of humor to that, but also a dose of seriousness. Nerds have an ongoing monologue (and sometimes dialogue) going on in their heads when they look at the world, and I often wonder how much of it is devoted to turning the real world into one big augmented reality app.

These are things that I thought about 3 days ago, when 2012 finally rang in.


Seriously, would it be fun to have a life where you can see personal stats like that?

I suppose if I had to start making resolutions for the new year, I’d have to go with “do something that works.” I’m a little older now from when I used to be in my little world, so I can’t always play pretend. I can’t walk around school, thinking I’m as good looking as David Duchovny and as skeptical as Fox Mulder was. But what I can do is use the things that I love and make me happy to serve as metaphors that amplify what my year can become. Turning your life into an RPG for example, complete with experience points, achievements, item quests and boss battles, can make 2012 all the more interesting and a lot easier to take.

Find something you like and turn it into your guide for the year. It can’t always be perfect, but since when has anything ever been such?

And as I’ve learned over the past two years, it’ll always be about hockey.


I know the same can be said for a few other sports and their fans will faithfully defend it, but when I hear someone say “hockey is life,” it always rings as being the truest of all. I decided that for 2012, the metaphors that the game has will make the year a lot more fun and exciting. What hockey illustrates on the ice can easily illustrate what life is like off it.

  • We are determined by our need to accomplish goals and whenever the opportunity is there, we decide if we want to take our shot. Sometimes we score, most of the time we don’t. But if we work hard enough and never lose sight of the net, it happens. The more chances you take, the better a player you become.
  • Our shots, however, can only come if we help others. If we make assists for our team, they will reward you by assisting in your goals. Gretzky did it well, which made him The Great One.
  • Because we can’t do things alone. You can’t play every minute of every game and you can’t win it yourself. Even boxers and fighters need a string of coaches to improve themselves.
  • It doesn’t matter if you have the talent for something or not. Regardless of what line you’re on, when it’s your turn to go over the boards, you contribute to your team. Hockey is an exhausting game, making it best played with heart.
  • Remember that even the greatest of players get penalized occasionally. Take in your mistakes while in the Sin Bin, then you’re free to skate again.
  • Expect all manner of shit to come your way when you want to score your goal. You will take hard hits, get checked constantly, and have different things in front that will stop you from taking your shot.
  • But if you stay away from the corners and avoid major scrums, you can outskate your attackers to the net.
  • Most of all, keep your head up to avoid the hardest of hits, and stick down to stay focused on that puck. Be determined to know where it’s going to be, not where it was. When it finally comes your way, be ready to move with it.

Happiness in just a few words.

If the way the Rangers are playing is any indication, 2012 looks to be a great year ahead. I already have some ideas on where it will go and if I can just shoot that puck top shelf, it may just happen. I’m not ready to call it a “banner year” just yet, but this newfound determination and much more relaxed demeanor certainly helps the cause. I think 2011 helped kickstart something inside, and it would be a shame if I just let it slide. I try to both look ahead and take it one game at a time as I don’t want to jinx myself, like any superstitious player would. But something in me says that the ride is only going to get better this 2012, and I will hold myself accountable to that with this first post of the new year.

Whatever or whoever you choose to believe in, the highest ideals are human intelligence, creativity and love. Respect these above all.

And as always:


Happy 2012 everyone.



I’m not really for these lists, but I make exceptions. Plus Roni is great. She was the first to give this a go, so I’d like to take a shot on goal too.

Five ways to win your heart

1.) Honesty
2.) Kindness
3.) Patience (especially when it comes to how much I tend to nerd out over different things)
4.) A great sense of humor
5.) And let’s face it, a certain amount of geekery, especially with things that aren’t of my interests. I love to learn about people and new things.

Something you feel strongly about

Love and tolerance. The world can be a much better place not because we all love each other, but because we tolerate things we don’t understand. People are killed everyday because of things they find “offensive,” playing into certain stereotypes.

A book you love

Thinking about the books I read this year, I loved reading Last Words, the autobiography (or sortabiography) of George Carlin. It’s so strange knowing that starting from my childhood, Carlin was already part of my life and continued to be so until his death. I owe his work a great deal of gratitude, and I honestly believe I wouldn’t be who I was today without his influence.

Bullet your whole day

  • Wake up
  • Pretend to check my watch, then yell “It’s Clobberin’ Time!” (Trust me, this fires me up).
  • Shower
  • Breakfast
  • Take in a half hour most of gaming
  • Leave for work
  • Arrive, then maybe get coffee/tea before starting
  • Work *
  • Lunch in between *
  • Work some more *
  • Take off to head home.
  • Dinner when I get back.
  • Take in my podcast for the day.
  • (Optional) Continue where I left off from video gaming earlier.
  • Internet time.
  • Sleep

* – denotes time online as well.

Things you want to say to an ex

Your kid looks almost like my nephew. It kinda scares me.

Your views on mainstream music

How the fuck can you “view” something you listen to?

But I really have no opinion on it. Music to me was always selective, and not in a pretentious elitist way either. I love music, regardless of the genre. I just feel that some music today is not made for me, so I really shouldn’t be hating on it, nor judge people on what they listen to. A musician friend once told me “If it sounds good to you, then good. If not, remember that someone else likes what you don’t.” I can probably tell you what my favorite Japanese Math Rock band is one minute, then later say how incredibly awesome I Want It That Way by the Backstreet Boys is.

Five pet peeves

– Tardiness
– Ignorance
– Extremely pretentious people
– People who are slow as fuck while in line at the ATM.
– The Philadelphia Flyers (hey o!)

What you ate today

Pancakes I made myself

How important you think education is

It’s everything. It’s the equivalent to EXP. Points in an RPG. You can’t Level Up your character if you haven’t developed your skill set enough. Regardless if you have a diploma or not, it is the most important factor to slaying that final boss called Ignorance by helping you develop Well-Roundedness/Worldliness. People are naturally curious, they just need to see it themselves. Be it in an institution or on the street, they are learning everyday. What they get from these experiences is up to them, but they should not glaze over anything that comes their way. The saying goes “Jack of all trades, master of none.” The real ending to that should be “…though often better than a Master of One.”

Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play

– Tom Waits’ Ruby’s Arms
– Razorback’s Daan-daang Dahilan
– Heart’s These Dreams
– Rush’s Freewill
– Supergrass’ Movin’
– Survivor’s Ever Since The World Began (really?)
– Miles Davis’ So What?
– Brian Garcia’s Purple Bloom
– Whitesnake’s The Deeper The Love
– Rainbow’s Stargazer

Your family

is huge. Last I checked, I have about 60+ cousins, and already 3 nephews and nieces.

Five girls you find attractive

– Alison Brie
– Felicia Day
– Veronica Belmont
– Karen Gillan
– Can I just add whoever wears glasses here and has a great smile?

Your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it

Being the resident fat kid was both a curse and a blessing. The first part’s obvious, having sat through excessive bullying and teasing for it as I went on with my childhood. It depressed the hell out of me, but later in life it was became a good thing. See, this is a thin man’s world, and a lot of assertions made about others always come from “a thin man’s point of view.” It’s not that easy telling fat people that they should lose weight or if “well if they just did this, then they wouldn’t be that.” There’s always more to it.

But the bright side to this constant battle? It made me more empathetic to the world. I grew up fat, and I know about rejection. Because of that, I endeavor to not let people feel rejected. It’s the fucking bane of my existence…..I am “that guy”. I’m a guy that understands what it’s like to be rejected. I don’t care who you are. It’s not like you walk through that door, I’m going to rob you of your dignity or anything like that. I’m pulling for you. Even if you suck, I won’t let you think you suck to your face. If I did you would never fucking know it.

So yeah. I’ve gotten lighter since.

What you wore today

It’s still morning so I’m wearing an old shirt from high school and ratty shorts that I use for sleeping. I am fucking glamorous.

Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality

I don’t really believe in astrology but as a Bull, I think I can say that I get my kicks just chatting with people, or bullshitting with them.

Well that and The Rock, The Brahma Bull himself, was born the same day I was.

Something you always think “what if” about

What if I actually progressed through school “on time” instead of being held back a year when I was entering kindergarten. The possibilities scare me.

Something that you’re proud of

My college thesis. I know I know, it gets tiring to just talk about the same thing, but it still remains the highest point of my entire academic life. Not only did I get to write and research about something incredibly geeky, but I managed to sang Best Thesis in my course. While I didn’t get Best Thesis in my batch overall, I was content with just letting it be accepted. Everything else that followed was just bacon icing.

A problem that you have had

My Skyrim character is pathetic with magic, and it’s starting to affect how I go through some areas.

Five items you lust after

– Japan
– Canada
– A really awesome apartment that will also serve as my nerdy man cave.
– A replica of the Tenth Doctor’s coat
– Mass Effect 3

Your fears

I fear people who work hard and show passion for their craft won’t get the recognition they deserve.

How you hope your future will be like

More hardened, more experience points, and someone actually finding me hillarious.

Your academics

Communications and Media Studies. That’ll never change.

Five words/phrases that make you laugh

1. Fishnets
2. All variants of “douche.” Like douchecanoe, doucheageddon, douchechimp, douchenozzle etc
3. “You cock juggling thundercunt.”
4. “Tangina naman eh.”
5. Boobs, says 12-year old me.

Something you’re currently worrying about

Christmas shopping, the new year and if I can kick ass.

Things you like and dislike about yourself

I like that I can be very self effacing and always find something to comment on, regardless of what’s going on.

I dislike that I can be very self effacing and always find something to comment on, regardless of what’s going on.

What to believe???

A quote you try to live by

“Don’t go where the puck was. Go where it’s going to be.” – Wayne Gretzky
“Don’t be a dick.” – Wil Wheaton
“It’s Clobberin’ Time!” – The Thing

Somewhere you’d like to move to or visit

Tokyo or Canada. Two places that have played major roles in my life with the things they’ve produced. Forever grateful to these two places, but feel bad I haven’t gotten around to seing them.

Five weird things that you like

– Old/Dated technology.
– Bad movies.
– The ambiance of Sari sari stores.
– Living Colour’s Cult of Personality (it makes me twitch)
– The sounds of a hockey game.

One thing you’re excited for

The look on some people’s faces when the world won’t be ending on December 21, 2012.




I promise not to neglect you anymore WordPress. We have a lot of catching up to do. And funny pictures to post too right?

Start Game. New Game Plus.

I’m a firm believer of cycles and restarts. I sometimes think we as people are in constant repetitive state where we continue to do things we used to, be it as kids or young adults, but on a more evolved and mature level as time goes on. That’s probably why I like this feeling of the blog starting up again. I used to blab about my life first on paper and on an X-Files notebook, which then changed into something more convenient in the electronic age, and where this story first began. Either that or it ties in with a certain show I’ve been blabbing about for almost two years that was also recently rebooted and has restarting and regenerating as a major theme.

The thing about reboots is that you have to re-introduce a new audience to what was a fairly old concept, before getting into the changes made for the modern era. It may seem pointless at first, but that was always the idea of rebooting. When you see what it once was, just imagine what it would be like now with today’s resources and life lessons. Now that’s out of the way, I give a brief back story. This is important.

I officially started blogging one evening back in late 2003. After being pestered by a friend for awhile to join this thing called “LiveJournal,” I bit the bullet and went with it. Back then children, LiveJournal was a secret club you just couldn’t sign up for and then make multiple journals for different things. You either had to pay for the service, or know someone who had an invite code that was up for grabs. That’s how I got started, so you kids better respect your elders should I decide to go back. And get of my lawn!

One of the things about that original blog was it was never meant to last that long. I never wanted to “maintain a blog” or be a “blogger.” Maybe because I had no interest at the time with blogging or I just asked myself “now what?” upon registering. It was never about “well people don’t really care what I have to say,” but I saw no point in it. Still, I made the most out of my first week, talking about Led Zeppelin and a recent Pacquiao fight that was on replay. Later on, I found out that I was going on a trip to Hong Kong with the family and that I would be leaving in about a week. Now that I had a blog, I thought that it’d be cool if I had internet access and just blog about my stay there. I was 19 and had no concept of this just yet. In a span of a few short days, the blog shifted from incoherent ramblings and angst riddled conversations with myself, to a brief travelogue of my daily on goings during my stay there. When I got back, I kept quiet for awhile but got back into the spirit of things. For the next six years and some, my stay in LiveJournal would evolve and would have significant repercussions personally both for the good and the bad. Kinda like how you’re supposed live life right?

Which brings me to today. I rebooted the blog just a little over a week ago with a new perspective on how to “long form blab” instead of in 140 characters or less. In that time when I stopped blogging all together, I began to read other people’s blogs and as the itch started to grow again, I couldn’t resist any longer. It was around that time I learned that in a few days time, I would be leaving for Singapore to spend the holiday week.

To recap: I was once hesitant about blogging, got snookered into it by a friend just as I was about to leave for a trip abroad. Seven years later, I decide to break out of my blogging spell, once again convinced by outside forces to do and I am leaving for Singapore tomorrow. From what I first said, I called the blog “New Sentimentality” because this gives me the chance to be sentimental about new things.

See how everything just fit?

It’s obvious at first, but if I had to dispense some life observations for my first official “rebooted blog,” it would be this: history does repeat itself, but people shouldn’t always look at that so negatively. It’s true that history will always have its mistakes and that is unavoidable. In this cynical world we live in, society seems more interested in your blunders more than what you accomplished. That’s why I choose to look at what good personal history has and how I can also either adapt or modify those positives to help avoid impending negatives. In my case, I’m not proud of how I approached my original blog at times, but there were some great moments there I always grin at. And with that and a chance to reboot, I can apply those lessons I learned by not only learning from my mistakes, but adapting the positives to fit the modern era.
The same goes with how you approach life. You may be in a place where there’s nothing but negativity, anger or resentment at something, but I’m confident that there’s some good that you’re doing or going through at this very moment. That should be the start of another, well, restart.

Before I close this, I want to give a quick heads up to Trish and Roni for being the unexpected catalysts of New Sentimentality. Trish is a good egg and one of the biggest geeks I haven’t had the pleasure of knowing in real life yet. I think my waiting for Series 6 and Series 2 of Sherlock wouldn’t have been as fun without her Yumi. She’s going on a European trip so you best check out her own travel blog right here. Before Roni showed up, I thought I was the most die-hard fan of ol’ Smitty around these parts. Knowing that she’s a big fan too is a great feeling and it takes me back to some of my favorite years growing up and obsessing over everything that man and his friends do.

I realize that the above paragraph talked about travel blogs and a rekindled fan worship of all things View Askew/SModcast. And so another cycle begins again.

EDIT: I just learned about Elisabeth Sladen’s passing today. For someone who wasn’t around for the original run of Doctor Who, I only knew her from the reboot and from old fans calling her the quintessential Companion. After seeing her work and in old episodes with Jon Pertwee and Tom Baker, I have no doubts about that. Wanted to share this bit from School Reunion.

“The universe has to move forward. Pain and loss, they define us as much as happiness or love. Whether it’s a world or a relationship, everything has its time. And everything ends.”

Arguments and Rebootal

Oh hello there. Been getting some questions from many sides so I thought I’d try to answer some of them.

Where are you?

I’ll be there in 5 minutes. Seriously, I live right across.

Can I have it back?

For the last time, I only have the blue one.

What are you listening to right now?

The Heavy’s Short Change Hero. Also know as my badass song of the month.

Why not start a blog again?

All right. Sure thing.

Great! Do you know where to begin?

Ah hell. That’s ALWAYS the problem.

Well no matter. Here we are again. Square one, the starting line and Point A. For a first post, I can call this a work in progress or maybe just a long overdue return. So away from 140 characters and reblogged posts of interests, this’ll be the new home of what was once my long form blog. Time for new things to chuckle, muse and get sentimental about then. I was on LiveJournal for 7 years, so a new production team’s been hired to put my thoughts into action.

I’ll figure out how WordPress works but I pick things up fast. Give me time.

And a crayon.